Fragments from July

Some months must be lived in their entirety before they can be told. July was one of those months.

July 7

The last article went out.
I had promised myself a Monday ritual. I kept my word… until life reminded me that it does not bend to our tidy resolutions.

July 14

A beautiful day.
The visit of a friend one with whom I needed to speak, to unburden.
The words flowed late into the night, so much so that I almost missed the fireworks… almost. There was no article that day.

July 21

Trondheim.
A family visit precious, long-awaited. My cousin led me through the city: past the colored houses, along the winding streets. The family introduced me to the country’s flavors, and I tasted salmon as I had never tasted it before.
The days themselves seemed to stretch, the sun rising at 3 a.m. and lingering until nearly 11 p.m., as if making space for every shared moment. There was no room for solitude here.

July 28

The Youth Jubilee. Nine days of pilgrimage that spilled into an August Monday.
Thirty young souls to meet, a communal life to invent each day anew, and the freedom to live in the present, unbound by any other demand.
Each morning, words rose in my journal, and at the end of every page, a single sentence: the distilled essence of the day. These are my « fragments ».
Today, a Saturday, I take up the thread again. “Better late than never,” as the saying goes.

Here are July’s fragments, small thoughts born at daybreak, meant to hold the essential:

1. There is always a beginning. And perhaps one reason for these constant beginnings is to remind us that all things pass… and that what passes can return. What starts may start again. The little endings of life give birth to the little beginnings of tomorrow.

2. Life always moves forward. Sometimes we fear we are running out of it… so we start to run. Wise is the one who knows they will die, yet understands that even with death ahead, one can still mature, feed the mind, strengthen the body, and keep dreaming as long as they can rise, as long as they can rise higher.

3. I dream often, plan much, and do little… but as long as that little breathes, I honor it. Small steps know the way to far places.

4. Life can feel brief, and tomorrow remote. Death may come as a release from the unbearable, or as a blade in the prime of life leaving the living with a wound still open.

5. Life is gentle when family is a crutch, a compass, a refuge. It is beautiful when the bar is set at the height of friendship, love, and laughter.

6. The smallest things take on new magnitude when they knock at memory’s door. They carry the traces of childhood, of the time before care when a piece of bread or a pair of shoes could fill the heart.

7. People are our mirrors. They reflect who we are and how we appear, pushing us to see what we wish to become and, sometimes to our cost, what we must change to stop despising ourselves. We love poorly when we love alone; we love better when we sow, with others, the seeds of sharing.

8. Life is made of feasts and defeats. Better to have a few fairies at hand to quench the flames when all burns, or to spread warmth when all freezes.

9. Those from wounded families learn, with difficulty, not to wound those untouched by their pain. Hard… but necessary.

10. Some days are longer than night, more cruel than a nightmare, heavier than a year. Days that announce the end of a long-hoped-for story… of a dream long dreamed.

11. Taking hold of one’s destiny is an act of courage especially when the dream is greater than the life known until now.

12. A journey without a dream is mere displacement. To travel is to feed the quest, to savor joy, to walk toward an unknown that promises to reveal itself and to rejoice so we may better remember.

13. What belongs to us will find us in the end.

14. Talent must be married to luck… to keep misfortune at bay.

15. Not all unfolds as planned. Much bars our path… then returns, at the most unlikely hour, to place us back upon it.

16. Life can be so sweet, so full, that the dramas, wounds, and sorrows seem, in time, worth the price they demanded.

17. Life always triumphs. Even in illness. Even in despair. Even in doubt. It carves a way forward, sometimes where we no longer look for it. Yes… life always triumphs.

18. Keep moving. Always keep moving.

19. We are greater than the story told about us, more subtle than the perceptions they hold of us. We are not scraps gathered along the way, but the whole story: the one before them, the one of our entire life. And we alone are fit to pass sentence on ourselves.

20. Sometimes letting go is the worst choice.

21. Life always finds its path. Sometimes it reveals it just after we have stopped believing. To wait, to hope that is our duty toward it.

22. There are moments when truth is not fit to be spoken. When it cannot be confessed.

23. And sometimes, truth is not the thing to say at once. Yet even if it cannot always be spoken, we must not grow accustomed to lies. If it is true today, we must ensure it does not remain true forever. We must walk away from what or who pulls us from it.

24. Life is a field of learning. The living learn here to grow, to live… and to die.

25. Who knows what will break us free from our ignorance? Sometimes it is a question that forces us to dig until we reach the answer. Sometimes it is someone simple who sees us as great, and whose gaze calls us to rise to it. Everyone matters in everyone’s life… if only we would see it.

26. There are days without: without hope, without a way through, without light, under heavy clouds. Days we would rather have never known.

27. Love is not enough. Before it comes, there must be a deliberate choice: the decision to commit, and to allow the other to commit to us. In this meeting of wills, love finds solid ground.

28. Life is a dance. A beautiful dance. Fortunate is the one who knows the steps to their own song. Victorious is the one who dances, no matter the music.

29. We learn much from others. Life’s reality is incomplete when it ignores other realities. Joy is hollow if it never leans toward the other.

30. To find one’s way, one’s calling, is to find a deep reason to live. Even in waiting. Even in adversity. Even amid the noise and doubts of others. To fight with conviction is to know that, even in uncertainty, life is not indifferent. To find one’s calling is to seek happiness in the right place.

31. Generosity is a gift of the soul. A gift of oneself. To know how to give, to want to give, to be able to give in full freedom, in full honesty, without expecting anything in return.

Written by Aliane UMUTONIWASE

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